I did a scary thing… and lived.

A few weeks ago, Sadie of Your Anxiety Bestie asked me to be interviewed for her podcast. Actually, she’d mentioned it before, but brought it up again when I was still working on my Social Anxiety at Home series. I’d been putting her off, even though the thought intrigued me, because it was scary.

Then one of the other members of the Besties group agreed to be interviewed and I thought “What’s the worst that could happen?” (I didn’t have an answer.) So I told her I’d do it if we could record while my kids and husband were out of the house. It almost didn’t happen. She got sick on the week we were supposed to record and we had to postpone to the last week of school.

But we did finally get it recorded (I posted a little about it in my At Home conclusion post) and today it went live. I wasn’t sure if I wanted to listen to it because I thought I’d hate hearing my voice and nitpick all of my ums or how I sounded. I eventually decided I did want to hear it and could stop if it was too cringy. I listened to the whole thing. And I sound like a totally normal person. It didn’t feel like I was listening to myself at all. If I didn’t know it was me, I wouldn’t realize it was me, if that makes sense. It sounded like someone that’s got her sh*t together.

I told Sadie that when she asked me what I thought. And she said it proves that other people can’t see our social anxiety, even if it feels like we’re broadcasting it to the world.

Of course, it helps that its just the audio. You can’t see me fidgeting with the toys on my desk or hugging my neck pillow around my waist. In an audio file (that’s been beautifully edited), you don’t have the visual cues that you do in person. But Sadie was sweet and told me that I sounded just like the person she’s gotten to know over the past several months.

I’ll be honest… between the reels and the interview, I’ve kinda got the bug to do more. Though that will probably fly out the window when I start to overthink again. Until then, I’ll feel good about the podcast interview and try not to obsessively check my WordPress stats to see how much traffic it may have sent this way (because that sorta freaks me out).

If you want to hear the interview, you can find Your Social Anxiety Bestie Podcast on whatever your favorite host might be. Here is her link tree on IG so you can easily find it. Personally, I use Apple, because it’s already on my phone and iPad. The link for that is here.