Book in 90 – Week 3

Finishing up Week 3! This week we focused on our “gap.” What is the limiting belief that is holding us back from our creativity?

Well, while I have many, I focused on one that holds me back from a lot of things: “I am no good.” This creeps into my brain in various forms. Sometimes it’s “I’m no good at telling this story.” or “I’m no good at dialog tags.” or “I’m no good at being a parent (wife, daughter, friend…).” or “I’m no good at my job.” It’s a limiting belief that I’ve been working on in therapy for years.

Sage told us that these limiting beliefs will never go away (don’t I know that!), but that we can replace them with a new truth. The exercise was to write our limiting belief on a notecard, then cover it with something that will remind us of our new truth. On the back, we wrote that new truth. Here’s what I came up with:

When I start thinking I’m no good, I will thank my anxiety for trying to protect me, but also remind myself to be kind and gentle, love myself, have patience, and that I am beautifully and wonderfully made.

My goal for the week is to have at least 3 writing sessions and a total of at least 3,000 words by the end of the week. So far I have one writing session under my belt, which resulted in 1,627 words. I know I will have the writing session this afternoon with the other B90 folk, but I am hoping to get some writing in before that as well. Yesterday I stopped writing at a tough spot that was bringing up a lot of emotions, which I think pulled in some of those limiting beliefs. To be kind to myself, I decided that I could set the writing aside for the day and return to it another time. That time should be now, but I’m still feeling some hesitation. Time to be patient with myself. I know that I can do this. It doesn’t have to be perfect, it just needs to be done.

I’ve found that doing Cosmic Smashbook pages really helps with getting my creativity going, so I think I’m going to work on that right now. Hopefully that will push me past this speedbump and into the writing. I’m really grateful for how much Sage’s guidance has opened my creativity and pushed me back on track. Time to see where the road leads!