Question: Where do friendships fit into my life? How do I nurture them?
- Death ~ Rebirth – letting go of something to make room for something new. Transition, change, new beliefs, initiation process, Cusp of massive transformation.
- The Hierophant – tradition, a lesson, spiritual leader or guide, awakening, gateway between Divine Source and seeker. Voice in own heart matters most.
- 6 of Swords – going on a journey, rite of passage, healing, help arriving at the perfect time, support from others, accept help.
Something I’ve struggled with most of my life, and even more so this past year, is friendship. It’s not that I don’t have friends, I just frequently feel alone with no one to turn to. After my best friend passed a year ago, I have felt adrift. I often feel like a friendship is growing deeper, only to have it feel as if it has slipped from my fingers. I don’t have a lot of opportunities to meet new people, and I have a hard time reaching out to the people I already know.
I’ve been assured that mine is not an uncommon problem. But it doesn’t change the fact that I’m lonely and I want to have a friendship that I can lean on, commiserate with, laugh with, cry with, and all of the other things that friends are there for.
This year I’m really working on discovering who I truly am and along with that I’m seeking friendships with people that know and support the real me. I know this will be a journey. But I think that the cards I pulled today are reassuring.
When I first saw the Death card, I was a bit concerned. Until I realized that it wasn’t a physical death so much as the death of the relationships that no longer serve me to make room for the ones that will transform me into who I want to be. The hierophant says that it’s time for me to listen to my own heart and reach out to those people that I feel a connection with. It’s also time for me to expose myself to the possibility of friendships beyond the small circle I’m already in. The six of swords assures me that this journey will lead me to the help I need at the right time.
In March I will be going to a gaming convention with my husband. It’s the same convention I’ve been to the last two years (though it’s in a different city this time). In the past I took painting classes, but didn’t really meet many people outside of the ones my husband introduced me to. The idea of playing any of the games terrified me. And if I’m honest, it still does. But I have decided that I need to give it a try. I’ve signed up for several learn to play sessions in the hopes of learning a game that I might want to continue playing as well as meeting others that could potentially become friends and go with me on the quest to find myself.
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