This is ridiculous

I mentioned yesterday all that I had to do just to get an answer on what to do regarding my warfarin management for surgery. It had seemed like it was all worked out.

However, this morning I called the orthopedist’s office to ask who would be calling in the prescription. She said she’d ask the difference and get back to me. A little while later she called to say he didn’t feel comfortable prescribing it because he has never done it before and he’d prefer my cardiologist handle it.

So I contacted my cardiologist’s officer with this information and got a call later from her assistant telling me that she doesn’t feed comfortable either and I should contact my EP. I explained to the assistant that getting past the EP’s office staff is impossible and I was very frustrated that no one was willing to help me out and I was having to contact him on his cell phone, which most patients wouldn’t be able to do. She was sympathetic, but it changed nothing.

When I got off the phone with her I texted my EP, saying “Ugh. Orthopedist and Cardiologist both say they don’t feel comfortable calling in the Lovenox because they’ve never prescribed it. Can you?” I immediately got a “Sure” as a response. Now to see if it actually happens. So far, I haven’t heard from the pharmacy. If I don’t hear by tomorrow afternoon, I’ll call the pharmacy first, then I’m not sure if I should call the orthopedist office, EP office, or text him again. This shouldn’t be this hard.

And this is why I’m dealing with feelings of being defective in therapy. Because no one else has to jump through a million hoops like this for a simple day surgery. Nothing is ever simple for me. I hate it.

My kids and I were at lunch when I got the call and they asked what was going on. I explained and said “This shouldn’t be this hard.” They asked why it was, and I said “Because it’s me. And nothing is ever easy when it comes to me.”

But on another note, I signed up for a memoir writing course that started today. Leading up to the zoom I was terrified. In an effort to calm myself, I decided to make an IG reel about how terrified I was. I wanted to talk to someone that would understand, yet at the same time didn’t want to disturb anyone, if that makes sense. I didn’t necessarily need a response, just a way to vent.

While I was in my zoom meeting, the reel got almost 4,000 views and tons of likes and comments to encourage me. I was completely shocked. I posted a follow up reel to say as much (that one hasn’t been seen by nearly as many, which is fine with me). I really don’t understand reels or why random ones get seen by so many phone while others don’t. I’m sure there’s some formula, but just like with my blog posts, I do them for me so it doesn’t really matter.