I did not have therapy today. I did not have therapy last week and I won’t have therapy next week. It isn’t ideal. Last week I was out of town with my daughter. Next week I will be out of town with my husband. Today my therapist had a funeral to attend and the times she had available to reschedule didn’t work for me. However, I did get a call on Monday that there was an opening with the psychiatrist. When I’d made my appointment originally, the first available was March 29th, so I thought I had two more weeks to wait. Hopefully that means I’ll be feeling better 2 weeks sooner!
Monday’s appointment was virtual (this psychiatrist does only virtual appointments) and my dogs decided to go nuts a few minutes before my appointment time. Not only that, but my mother in law was in and out of the house (making them even more agitated). To say that I was anxious would be an understatement.
This psychiatrist is very to the point. I know she was just trying to get to the bottom of what my needs were and the end goal was to get put on the right medication for my situation. But there were times when I felt like I had to defend myself and the way she asked questions made me feel like I was answering wrong. Which I know is totally on me and one of the exact reasons I’d decided to look into medication. Ultimately, she diagnosed me with social and generalized anxiety and depression. Which I knew, even if I hadn’t had a formal diagnosis. But I know she had to confirm before she could prescribe anything. Based on the diagnosis and my current medications and heart history, she prescribed Zoloft.
I started Monday night and had the pleasure of immediate side effects (tummy trouble) at 3 AM. Why does it take 6+ weeks to get the good effects of SSRIs, but the negative side effects hit right away? Thankfully, that hasn’t continued beyond yesterday morning. I have been dealing with a major headache, but that started before I started the medication, so I don’t think I can blame it. Having just traveled, my brain keeps worrying it’s a sign of Covid, even though I don’t have any other symptoms. I even went so far as to take a test yesterday and while it looked negative, I can’t help but wonder. I’ve seriously had this headache since Monday.
I’ve also been very tired. I went back to bed yesterday and today after my kids left for the bus. I only napped a little before I had places to be or I might have slept the day away. I don’t know if it’s the Zoloft making me sleepy, the headache, or the time change. Possibly a combination of all three.
I know that it’s possible that we will have to try several medications and doses before we find the right one, but I’m really hoping I’ll start seeing a difference. I need some relief.
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