It’s almost over. Today is our last group coaching and writing session for the Book in 90 program. I’ve learned so much in the last 12 weeks. And written SOOOO many words!
I’ve reached 107,494 words so far. I’m not done, but I can see the end in sight. I’ve got my plan in place, and I know that I will get to the end of this draft. I am staying in the step I’m in and trying my darndest not to panic at the idea of draft two.
I’ve already started meeting with the ladies that will be in the next program I signed up for. Working with Sage has been extremely helpful, and I am thankful to have the opportunity to continue to receive her guidance. I have a feeling I’ll be needing it even more than ever.
The interesting thing is, I’m not just learning about getting the writing done. I’m also learning about how my brain effects my writing. My limiting beliefs, the way I prioritize others instead of myself, and cognitive distortions have been getting in the way of my writing. I’m hopeful that Sage’s coaching will get me through those. I know they will always be there, but when she points them out, I feel more capable of silencing them.
For example, tomorrow my kids have an early release day. They will get out of school at 1:00. I have a cowriting session with Sage that lasts until 2:00. The old me would have simply missed the writing session. After all, my kids are more important, right? But instead, I told the kids the situation and asked if they could help me come up with a solution to get them (plus a tuba) home without me missing my writing session. They didn’t see a problem. They said they could walk home, even with the tuba.
Now, since then I’ve found someone willing and able to pick them up, but the fact that they didn’t hesitate for even a second reminds me that I am putting more on myself than they are. They were not upset with the thought of me not picking them up from school. That was quite eye opening.
Our last B90 zoom meeting is about to begin. I think I’ll follow up with how that went to finish out this series of posts. “See” you after!
I’m going to miss the ladies in Book in 90. I’m hoping that I can continue to support them in their writing moving forward. Two (that I know of) will be in the next program with me, so I’m glad about that. I know that I would be feeling a huge loss if I didn’t already have support lined up for the next 9 months.
Sage had us reflect on the last 12 weeks through a guided journaling activity. In one quadrant we wrote what wisdom we received from B90. The second quadrant was for our wins. The third was for surprises. And the last was for challenges. It was a great way to really think about how the last 12 weeks has shaped us. It was interesting hearing the others talk about how they’ve been impacted and one even mentioned me as an inspiration for them! You never know when you’re influencing others.
I told Sage that when I signed up for B90 I thought I was going to get help with writing. I didn’t know I was signing up for therapy! I really have grown in these last 12 weeks. I can’t wait to see how much more I’ll grow in the months to come!
Yesterday I attended a session with the new group I’ll be joining, and we dove into what our symbol for the year might be. Mine has come up before and I believe has a lot of potential. As a matter of fact, that’s what it’s all about. The potential to grow from a tiny little bean into something large and beautiful.
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