It’s launch day and I feel wound tighter than a…tightly wound thing. Yep. That’s as coherent as it gets today, folks! I’m an absolute mess. Apparently all of my critics are coming out to play.
Do-it-all Debra – “You must do everything! Be ready for any possibility!”
Frowning Frank – “You made a mistake and should cancel the whole thing. I knew keeping it on the same day as HoCo was going to come back to bite you.”
Nickle Pickle – “You must receive praise or you’re a failure.”
Wishing Wendy “Why can’t you just be brave? That’s what your book is about. I wish you were as brave as your characters.”
Perfect Persephone – “If you stumble or stutter, you fail. Why set yourself up for that?”
Can’t Creature – “You can’t do this, what were you thinking?”
Sir Protectalot – “I know how to save you! Run and hide!”
I know they all mean well. But they’re being much too loud today. It doesn’t help that I’ve had multiple close friends that have contacted me to say they won’t make it. Which means Frank is giving me an “I told you so” frown.
I’m working hard to tell them all that they don’t get to drive this rocket ship today and to buckle up and be quiet. No matter how this goes today, I’ve won. Because I’m showing up and being seen. And I can do this. I have evidence that once I’m in front of an audience, my Rebel Muse takes over (mostly) and creativity can flow. And if sales are low, that’s okay. I’ll have another opportunity at the author showcase. Or if the opposite happens and I run out of books, I can take orders and get more. If the card reader doesn’t work or I can’t fix the tax issue, that’s okay. I’m not doing this for the money. I just want people to read the book and feel seen.
I can do this.
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